Monday, September 29, 2008

The family

Man this summer has been a roller coaster. Ethan started 2nd grade and is doing so well and loving school. He is really starting to grow out of most of the more irritating stages of back talk and smart mouth. I was starting to think he was going to be a lawyer or a politician with his debating skills. The urge to slap him in the mouth has definitely subsided and I am couldn't be more thrilled about it. He recently participated in the Pajama Jog-a-thon and did 12 laps. He made sure to tell me that I didn't cheat like some other kids. He has a strong desire to chose the right and I admire him for it. I will try to foster this desire in him and hope it carries through his teens when he starts dating girls. Geesh what in the H am I gonna do then.

Gideon is so dramatic and performs every chance he gets. I suspect he will be our next thespian. Always creative, you never know what Gideon is going to say next. Yesterday in the truck he told us that Dad had insects on his brain that make him mad sometimes. Although with his pronunciation and lisp it sounded like he said " Dad has sex on his brain and it makes him mad sometimes." Boy did we have a laugh about that.

Tom was is always being threatened by layoffs because nobody wants to build anything. Every time he warns me of the possible unemployment, I always think if we are going to be struggling financially it would easier to be struggling near a tropical beach wouldn't it? Ever since I went to visit my cuz in Hawaii I have been trying to convince Thomas to move there even if it was just for a couple of years. He would be perfect for the easy going life of the island. Sometimes I say lets just sell all our crap and go live in Hawaii. I am not sure how Toms allergies would be but Gideon & Ethan are fish out of water I think they would be surfing in no time. I would LOVE IT !!!! All I wanted to do the whole time is snorkel and body board man I got a work out the whole time and loved it !

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Mystery Diagnosis
So I thought I would get on here and talk about the weird shit that has been going on in my life with Dr.'s and such ~

It started when I was 19 I was going to sleep and had a deja vu experience followed by intense euphoria, my heart would pound and I would have vivid visions of a women reaching out to me or memories of my childhood. Then after this brief orgasmic feelings it would turn to doom and death and I thought I was going to die. This lasted for about 40-50 seconds.

So I went and told my Dr. about it and immediately he prescribed me with anti-depressants and assumed I was having more of my panic attacks and associated it all with anxiety. Even though I was thinking how unlike these "episodes" are to my panic attacks I went along and took the drugs. After a short while of taking these drugs my life was horrible. I had lost all sexual drive along with any other desire to do anything. I was happy sitting on my ass all day long doing nothing. All of my passions for music, martial arts, God all of it was smothered by anti-depressants. I almost killed myself. So I discontinued to take the meds. The meds never stopped these "episodes" either so they were waste of my time.

They seemed to be far and few between so I didn't pay too much attention to them. Just recently after I turned 30 I began having these episodes with 10 X the crazy sensations as before, total hallucinations, and semi-unconsciousness followed by extreme panic and fear. After my husband saw me experience one of these "episodes" he insisted that I go the the ER. Needless to say it totally freaked him out. When I went to the ER the triage nurse treated me like a dumb ass liar and told me he thought it was a mental thing and I just needed to block it out. The Dr. I saw treated me the same like I was a mental patient. I told him I think I am having seizures and he responded " well accept the fact that you are not seizing." Frustrated and confused I followed up with my practitioner. She referred me to a neurologist along with a EEG and a MRI. The first neurologist spent 5 minutes listening to me and was convinced I was having Migraine Aura with out headache. That was his official diagnosis. Prescribed me with migraine meds and sent me on my way. The moment I left that arrogant son of a bitch's office I didn't believe his diagnosis was accurate.

So I decided to order my test results so I could have a look my self. As soon as I received the MRI result I noticed that I have 9 lesions and it was suspected that I have Multiple Sclerosis or have had a stoke. I was in shock and didn't know what to think at this point but getting a second opinion was a necessity. So just a couple of days ago I went to another neurologist who was awesome. He totally listened to me and actually looked like he was interested in what I had to say. After reviewing my MRI he told me the lesions didn't look specific enough to diagnose MS (whew) thank goodness, but the brain damage could be whats causing the seizures and I would need another MRI in a year to see if the brain damage would increase. (hence the short term memory issues, so sorry if I ask you guys the same questions over and over.) Its not specific where the brain damage came from, either caused by injury or born that way.

There it was slapping me in the face, he finally said what I had been suspecting the whole time I was having seizures. Instead of hospitalizing me and trying to map out the source he decided to treat me with medication. After all these years of fearing that I was slowly but surely slipping into a mental illness. Fearing I would be hospitalized for being a schizophrenic. I finally have been diagnosed with Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. I started my meds just recently and finally I feel like I can get back to being normal again.

So just for the people who feel bullied by a Dr. and leave feeling like you were never completely treated, don't feel like you have to settle for that crap. Go get another opinion and don't stop until you get answers.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

The latest !

Ok so we have joined the whole blogging about our family crap, you know I have to keep up with the Jones's. So I will catch you all up ....

Image and video hosting by TinyPicTom ~ Still working for the Sheet Metal Workers Union in Tualatin and hates it but we make good money so he tries his best to lie to me at the end of the day when I ask him how his day was. He has really been getting into online marketing and website promotion. I am sure he will have his website up soon, selling martial arts instructional videos etc. He often spends time bloggin and posting his input on martial arts groups and trying to network with other online entrepreneurs. He is a great dad and is always involved with what ever the kids got going on at the time. Always an eager wrestling apponent and enjoying the bennifits of being a father to a couple of rambunctious boys.

Lindsay~ Well I sold our karate school and opened a female clothing website and I'm trying hard to get things in order to launch a symposium tour in 2009. I just went to Medford and did a photo shoot and it turned out GREAT !Image and video hosting by TinyPicI am working out at Impact Jiu Jitsu and studying jiu jistsu and Mixed Martial Art (cage fighting) and loving it, even though I come home bruised and so sore. I was homeschooling Ethan for the last 2 years and I am nervous about him starting in 2nd grade but I am willing to give it a try. I love being married and enjoy my family time together.

Ethan~ 8 yrs old ~ He has lost all his front teeth and some of them are starting to grow back.Image and video hosting by TinyPic He just recently got his cast off his arm after a really bad break. Totally freaked me out when he came running in the house screaming like hell with his forearm at an angle it shouldn't have been in. His summer highlight was having Zaydn come and visit for a whole week. This is the video of it.
They enjoyed skating at the skate park (even with a broken arm) riding bikes and walking down to Jack in the Box for a snack. We went to Benni Hanna and the Family Fun Center. We had tons of fun.

Gideon~ 4yrs old ~ Boy what can I say about Gideon. He is the most interesting rubber faced person you will ever get to know.Image and video hosting by TinyPic Giddy is not afraid of anything and that is the problem. He loves everyone and even tries to hug our landlords..... YUCK ! Summer and I have been trying to make a goal of taking the kids swimming every Friday. Gideon is a wild man ! He will jump into any water head first life jacket on or not! He will try to swim under water half drown and flip onto his back and attempt a back stroke. He will slip on his swimming suit/floating device body suit and claim he is the next Micheal Phelps and that he is going to be an Olympic swimmer.